Grieving is one of the most painful experiences we go through. Every experience of grief is different, because every relationship is different, and each loss affects every person in a unique way. But grief is universal, and so is the deep desire to move beyond the sadness of grief. Here’s a message we recently received from someone who is grieving:
“I lost a friend of mine two years ago. It was unexpected, and I still haven’t fully recovered. I cry almost every day, and I never seem to know when grief will hit me. I’ve tried talking to some friends about it. But they only make me feel worse. They say things like ‘Everything happens for a reason’, but there’s no good reason I feel this way. I don’t know if I will ever be happy again.”
I can certainly relate to how this person feels, and how you’re feeling now. Even though we aren’t grieving the same loss, I know how frustrating it is to hear unhelpful advice when you’re coping with the profound sorrow of losing a loved one. Loss like that is not reasonable or rational, and we won’t make sense of much of the loss we experience, no matter how hard we try. I know it often feels like you will never stop feeling sad, but you can move forward and it’s ok if it takes time.
In some ways, we don’t get over our grieving. What we lost can’t come back into our lives, even though we wish things would go back to the way they used to be. So, it’s completely understandable that there may always be a feeling of sadness when you remember what you have lost. But grief is not a static feeling. It changes as we change. So, there will be times of deep sadness.
But as your grief shifts and changes, you’ll find sadness mingles with joy, gratitude, and other “brighter” emotions. I know it sounds odd to hear that there are bright sides to grief, but there are ways to shift your outlook to a more hopeful and less despairing one as you learn and cope.
Love is a joyful emotion, and it is tied to our grieving after a loss. I love the way author Anne Lamott describes the connection between grief and love, and how we can strike a balance between the many emotions we have when we grieve:
“You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly – that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” – Anne Lamott (Source: Wikipedia)
When you think about what you have lost, it allows you to still live with a memory of what you had when they were physically present. I always tell stories of beloved friends and family who have died, and when I do, it often brings a smile to my face. Not because I’m not also sad when I think of them, and certainly not because I forgot to think of them. I smile because I am constantly reminded how strong our bond remains even though they’re gone, and that comforts me. Noticing how much I think of them is a reminder of how much we loved one another. My sadness doesn’t go away, but it is no longer the only emotion I feel. Try thinking about your loved one and ask yourself some questions:
In exploring these questions, pay attention to how your feelings change. As you practice this for a few minutes each day, you may start to notice your heart doesn’t only feel heavy and sad. You may feel a sense of brightness and “lightness” that makes your feelings of sadness less overwhelming.
After losing someone, there have been times when I’ve laughed at a joke, appreciated a moment, or enjoyed a conversation with a friend, only to be hit by a sense of guilt afterward. I felt bad for feeling happy, as if being happy or enjoying something is a betrayal of the loved one, I lost. But the truth is, we’re allowed to be happy when we grieve. Writer Julie Vick says this about feeling happy during a time of grief:
“I have found this practice of not pushing aside difficult moments but being open to both joy and pain at the same time a helpful thought process in many situations. When dealing with tough times, negative feelings can often be all-consuming, so I’ve started to look for whatever small shimmers of light I can find.” (Source: Headspace)
It might seem like talking about what you lost would just make things more difficult but rediscovering hope and finding joy may come easier when talking to your loved ones about what you’re dealing with. Here are some suggestions for how to have these conversations:
Remembering what we learn from others is also a good reminder that we were all created with a purpose, and that we can make loved ones we’ve lost a part of living that purpose by carrying their lessons through life with who we are.
TheHopeLine is here for you, no matter where you are in the grieving process. Our HopeCoaches are trained to talk through grief without judgment, and to help you find hope in even the most difficult times. Healing during grief is possible, one day at a time. Talk to a mentor today about your grief recovery journey and get some support to help you face the days ahead. We are here for you.
We also have a partner, GriefShare, who is a caring support group of people who will walk alongside you through one of life’s most difficult experiences.
Osaremen Funmilayo says:
I wish I had known about this site before now,may be I will have escape the crisis, notwithstanding, I feel a little bit relieved now even though I still trust God for miracles of seeing my daughter again on the land of the living just like the days of Mary, Martha and lizards.